Deciding What's Important in Life

There are SO many things I want to do — or am I just wanting to do things to stay relevant and cool amongst my peers? 

I say this because I have been feeling more alone this year due to not having a large circle of friends as I’ve had in the past. 

Grieving for the loss of friendships and the fact that you are now an acquaintance feels strange. 

This whole thing brings me back to my 9-year-old self, with the belief that popularity matters. If people don’t want to hang out with you, it must mean you are unstylish, geeky, or don’t have much personality. 

Being with a certain group of friends made me feel significant. That’s probably why I value my work so much because of the position and recognition that come with it. My lifestyle is very dependent on the success of my job. 

If my daughter, Hailey,  walks in the same experience as I did, I know those kids would be so wrong to not want to get to know her — What a light she is, and how much joy and fun she can bring in someone’s darkness. God sees that in me and you. 

As my values shift, I get to decide what’s important in life. 

And this means that the change in old friendship is necessary to align my values with Jesus’s values. 

Less  superficial connections —> More meaningful conversations 

Less low-value tasks —> More intentional work 

Less consumption —> More room for creativity